I am constantly amazed at the sovereignty of God. Again and again throughout this life, He shows me how His Will is perfect.
In my mid-thirties, I was not seeking to have more children. After our third boy, my husband and I were certain we were done. We had plans after all.
However, last fall our hearts very suddenly — and surprisingly — changed. We found ourselves praying for God to bless our home with another child.
For we were born yesterday and know nothing; our days on earth are but a shadow.Job 8:9
We are just vapors. We are dust. Our plans are so easily disturbed, but the Lord’s are not.
At the beginning of our marriage, my husband and I discussed having a couple of kids, the school districts we liked, what our “forever house” would be, and how we both wanted to maintain full-time jobs. Fast-forward 9 years, we are homeschooling, I am a homemaker, and we are outgrowing this “forever home” quickly since our fourth child is due this summer.
We couldn’t be happier. We are much more God-centered and family-focused. Our mindset before was selfish and worldly. Praise that our Lord does not stop working on us!
For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work among you will complete it by the day of Christ Jesus.Philippians 1:6
There have been many times we were tested. Low finances, high-stress work situations, developmental concerns for our kids, health issues, etc. Each time, the Lord saw us through. The trouble deriving from sin (ours and the world’s) was still used, still purposed for God’s glory.
It is a sobering thing to ponder the sovereign nature of God. He is all-knowing, The Creator, perfectly good, perfectly just, the alpha and omega, timeless, and His Will outweighs all of man.
It’s common for people to say, “but God doesn’t control me! I have free will.” Yes, you have the will to choose sin. The ability to decide contrary to God’s commandments. And thankfully, any action made may still be used to fulfill the Lord’s purpose.
Any decision I have made contrary to His Word, was selfish and prideful. Praise His Name! For my foolishness does not change or affect God’s perfection. My foolishness does not derail the hand of Christ. I humbly rest in comfort and relief that my will may be bended, broken, and transformed to that of our Holy Savior. Praise for He is the constant, the eternal, and His goodness will always prevail.
As for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good in order to bring about this present result, to preserve many people alive.Genesis 50:20